Blogging Is Not For Me….
You never know where a word of encouragement will lead someone. That is exactly how I started blogging, by encouragement from my friends. I have always wanted to be a writer, but I never felt like I was no where near good enough. In school I loved reading and writing but my teachers didn’t always appreciate my constant cutting up, and what I considered “creative southern style” was graded as “bad grammar.” PPhhfff. I didn’t get Facebook until Daddy got cancer. Being a hairdresser I already knew everything about everybody anyway so I never got into it, but when he was sick I wanted to keep a lot of people informed of his progress and keep them praying. Facebook was the perfect tool. Not long after, I would have people message me and say “you should blog.” I’m like “yea, yea, whatever.” So ya’ll all know the infamous Haley Morgan Smith aka Haley Landers, depending on what kind of mood she’s in. Well, she’s in my chair getting her fro fixed and says “you should blog”. I tell that little joker all the time she could be a cult leader because she can talk anybody into anything. I said “Haley, I honestly don’t even know what blogging is.” She was pretty nice about not making me feel like an idiot explaining it’s like journaling… for the freaking world to read. That’s how I got here y’all. At the time it felt like it was just a series of random, meaningless events, but y’all that’s where God moves in your life. He is in those daily mundane moments that you don’t realize are important and leading up to something great. Psalms 37:4 says: Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart. Sometimes He sneaks it in and you may not even know He’s doing it until He is done it. I never imagined I would scratch my writing itch on the internet, but God knew the desire in my heart and well…here we are.
When it comes to blogging there are a few things that stick out to me. First of all you have probably noticed every blogger is a dad gum expert. Seriously. I mean you want to dig into the depth of the bond breastfeeding or how mothers desperately deserve a day to themselves on Mother’s Day with no kids, no husband and no guilt? Read a dang blog for Moms. You’ll find more than you ever wanted to know about scabs on lactating nipples and why it is okay that Mommas want to get the heck away from their families on Mother’s Day than you ever thought possible. Are you a health nut? Well I can show you a blog that will convince you baby carrots will kill you. Bloggers have church and judging and worship figured out for sure, all while teaching you how to soak a deer in Coca Cola to get the gamey taste out. It’s amazing…and it’s a lie. Keep this in mind. Bloggers and regular people running their pie hole. Imagine them typing away on their laptop in their underwear with a dirty house and kids fighting in the background because that is the reality. Good grief I cringe at the errors that I have in my blogs, but the reality is I have to write the blog, proof read a time or two and move on. I got stuff to do. Dinner to cook. Laundry to fold. Agendas to sign. I’m not saying bloggers are all full of crap or anything, we have some great stuff to say, I’m just saying keep it in perspective and don’t write off baby carrots.
The second thing is blogging can make the blogger feel super vulnerable. I’m a private person. The truth is in real life, if you ask me what is wrong, and something is wrong, I’m going to tell you nothing is wrong. I’m always “fine”. So, it can be weird when your a private person standing in line at the Walmart and the cashier asks about your son’s first girlfriend. Your thinking “how the heck do you know about that???” Then your like “oh ya, cause I told you.” Also, it makes my butt draw up every time someone messages me and refers to me as a Godly women. I certainly strive to be, but I am a handful folks. I never want to paint a picture that I have it all together. I’m just winging it most of the time and I’m nutty enough to tell y’all about it. It makes me so incredibly happy when I get a message that says I encouraged someone or inspired them somehow. That’s exactly what I’m aiming for. In your face high school writing teacher.
I saved the best for last…. Ridiculous blog titles. If that isn’t a sign of the times I don’t know what is. The most shocking and over the top titles gets the reads and shares. It’s usually kind of a scam. A blog shockingly titled “Why I Hate My Kids” will more than likely be about farm life and the annoying noises baby goats make.
I love blogging. I thank God for giving me the desires of my heart. You will never know how full my heart gets every time you guys share my blogs or send me messages about my blogs. Even if you do make my butt draw up by calling me a Godly woman. That is the highest of all compliments. I just want to get it right, after all blogging isn’t for me…. to take lightly.
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